First Tradition of the House of Reason

I accept the responsibility for discovering what pleases my Master and will do my best to fulfill his wishes and desires.

This is a very fundamental thought for me as a submissive. It is my responsibility to discover what makes my Master happy and to do it. A 'yes Sir' when requests or demands are made of me, from fetching drinks and food, to acting as a table or kneeling. The basic desire to please a dominant is a standard for a submissive. A submissive being extremely different from a simple masochist. A masochist enjoys pain being inflicted on them, usually for sexual pleasure. A submissive to me serves a Dominant, seeks to please Him (or her as someone's case maybe). Pleasing him, serving him, is more often than not, not really an option. I don't mean that if i dont please him, i will lose him (though that would more than likely be the eventual outcome), or that he would punish me (though he would). It is a basic need for me as a submissive. I need to please him, with out that purpose for me, for my life, i become lost. Like i said, basic.

Desires...

Master and I played with another girl on Tuesday night. It was something we had been talking about for a long time. We talked about three different scenarios- me being a top, a bottom, and neutral to the other female involved. I was most interested in being neutral the first time- being a completely ignored observer, but Master wanted me more involved. So I ended up kinda topping, and kind being on equal level with her. There was some rope play, a little impact play, hogtieing her. Then Master fucked her as i worshiped his feet from the floor... It was rather intense for me, and a first for us...

I'm interested in doing it all again. The girl, watching them fuck, hurting her, being hurt, worshiping both their feet, her foot pushing down on my head... *happy sigh*

And above that... I want to scene soooo fucking bad. I want to be beaten, bruised, bleeding, sore, stiff, giggling, cumming, tortured... I can't help it... I'm just a fucking pain slut...

Responsibility

For about a year or so now i have been acting more like a teenager or child than the 23 yearold woman that i am. I leave things for the last minute, especially chores, when i know i can get away with it (like when Master will not be around to see my house in a horrible state of disarray), make excuses for not doing things, and generally can get pretty lazy during the week. Master made a point to me last night, that little slaves like me need and can crave the tight leash, that i need him to watch things constantly or slack off and have a tendency to misbehave or get an attitude. As usual, Master is quite correct. I'm not always sure what it is that causes this, as i like to please my Master and most of the time try very hard to be a good girl. I guess part of it is lack of motivaton and a lean toward procrastination. I like schedules. Not exactly micromanagement, but more "Today you must accomplish A. B. and C." or "Every day you should spend ___ minutes doing this" It keeps me focused and reminds me that no matter how far away he is, and though he cannot see it at the moment, My Master is always with me, always watching out for me, always cares.