What a weekend!

Doesn't my weekend look like it was fun? It was...

We attended our second play party at Xpressions. We scened twice. The first time was a nice little spanking over a bench. A nice little warm up, a nice little touch.... I wore this cute little grey and pink business skirt and a grey vest with a sheer black shirt underneath, perfect to show off the sexy red and black bra I bought for Daddy for V-day. Plus my pink and black 4 inch heels... We left the bra and little underskirt on for most of the scene...

After, we gave ourselves some time to cool down. We waited on a space to clear.. It didn't look like it was going too... but then... Daddy asked some people that were just hanging out to move so that we could.... Well you can see the picture.... It was fucking fantastic... Add to it the fact that it stings (like a BITCH) anytime I move my neck... And well.. You can imagine that I've been in subspace for a while now.... Everytime I start to drop I/we do something to make it hurt again and down down down I go.

Yesterday we spent some time working to help move Xpressions from the old location (oh the party on Saturday night was the last one in that space, what a way to say goodbye) to the new, much much bigger space. It felt really really good to be involved in my community. So my next post will be about just that... Submissive involvement in the community....

For you...

You're asleep in my bed, curled around pillows, snuggled under blankets. I just couldn't nap. Too many things circling in my head. I envy your peacefullness, not just now as you sleep, but in your every day life. You never panic, never show worry. You center yourself and become an unshakable, unmovable object. I guess its the balance thing. You help calm my quakes of emotional turmoil that I always seem to be in. Even as I admire your ability to do it, I worry that it won't last. See? constant. You inspire me, heal me, give me the freedom to be everything and anything that I am. Its amazing. I've never ever ever been happier.

You are my hero, superhuman. Fighting for me, fighting for us, here to save me just in time.


'Cause without you I'm a disaster
(The moment you go)
And your my ever after
(Just thought you should know)
'Cause I need to know your answer
(Just say you'll stay with me)
I want you to say your gonna stay with me
(Just say you'll stay with me)
I die every day that you're away from me

If the world ceased to spin,
You could start it again
with just one smile
If the seas turn to sand,
With the wave of your hand it would rain for miles
But the thought of you gone
Makes everything wrong in my life
So stay right here, right now

New beginnings...

Well, guys, I know that I haven't posted her recently. There have been a lot of big changes for this little kitten, changes that have overwhelmed my senses, left me breathless, and unwilling to put so many chaotic thoughts down to this electronic canvas.

I posted before that MoR and I have ended our d/s relationship, as well as any relationship in general. After living together for nearly 2 months in a situation that became more and more awkward and uncomfortable, I knew it was time to move out and move on. So that's what i've been doing.

First was a new boyfriend. We'll call him Devin. 36. Blonde hair, blue eyes, sweetest smile I have seen on the face of an adult in my life. Tall and strong, with a beautiful heart and a deep soul. Playful and young for his age, yet the dominant daddy type without trying. He just is. There's still a huge amount of ground to cover, but this time feels different than anytime ever before. I'm not going into this thinking that he is perfect. There is no idolatry. Just an amazing amount of love. I know that I can still function without him around, i'm not losing myself. Long time readers will understand that this is rare for me. Usually I am so lost in a relationship, I abandon myself completely. Seems I am finally learning a good balance. And he helps with that. He's an artist and a musician. Very energy focused and spiritual without the focus on religion. And He makes my body sing.

I'm all moved into my new place. Mostly unpacked, except for some books that need a shelf and clothes that need hangers. Spent my first night here last night. First night in a new place is always a little strange. New sounds in the house, knowing your way around. Devin spent the night with me, after helping me move all day. It was sweet, if slightly domesticated.

Work is going well, the semester ended well, raising my GPA up several points. Looking forwarded to graduating at the end of this one. It will be a bittersweet relief.