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Thursday, December 29, 2011

New beginnings...

Well, guys, I know that I haven't posted her recently. There have been a lot of big changes for this little kitten, changes that have overwhelmed my senses, left me breathless, and unwilling to put so many chaotic thoughts down to this electronic canvas.

I posted before that MoR and I have ended our d/s relationship, as well as any relationship in general. After living together for nearly 2 months in a situation that became more and more awkward and uncomfortable, I knew it was time to move out and move on. So that's what i've been doing.

First was a new boyfriend. We'll call him Devin. 36. Blonde hair, blue eyes, sweetest smile I have seen on the face of an adult in my life. Tall and strong, with a beautiful heart and a deep soul. Playful and young for his age, yet the dominant daddy type without trying. He just is. There's still a huge amount of ground to cover, but this time feels different than anytime ever before. I'm not going into this thinking that he is perfect. There is no idolatry. Just an amazing amount of love. I know that I can still function without him around, i'm not losing myself. Long time readers will understand that this is rare for me. Usually I am so lost in a relationship, I abandon myself completely. Seems I am finally learning a good balance. And he helps with that. He's an artist and a musician. Very energy focused and spiritual without the focus on religion. And He makes my body sing.

I'm all moved into my new place. Mostly unpacked, except for some books that need a shelf and clothes that need hangers. Spent my first night here last night. First night in a new place is always a little strange. New sounds in the house, knowing your way around. Devin spent the night with me, after helping me move all day. It was sweet, if slightly domesticated.

Work is going well, the semester ended well, raising my GPA up several points. Looking forwarded to graduating at the end of this one. It will be a bittersweet relief.


  1. Glad things are going well. I can understand finding that balance of needing him but being able to be yourself as well. It can often get hard to find that balance, esp with new relationships. =)

    Happy new year!

  2. A new place and a new relationship--sounds like a wonderful way to start a new year.
    Best of luck to you.