Here and Open

For a while i starting posting on a different blog, inthehouseofreason.wordpress.com and i don't feel like maintaining two blogs at once, so i will be shutting that one down at sometime in the future. I moved cause i wanted to make a fresh start, an open start. Instead, i shut down as quickly as i started... I begin to wonder if maybe i am just not the regular blogging type. I like having an outlet here, and it has helped to open me up with Master, but without a topic to post on every day, i tend to slack off. And honestly, i tend to slack off anyway simply because i'm lazy or busy. I don't know how long i will continue writing here, but somethings have happened in life recently that i need a space to talk about....

Master and i have decided to open our relationship up to other people. i know this sounds crazy to anyone that has read many of my posts... Hell the last post here was me bitching about him playing with another girl... It has been the topic of discussion for a while now, but usually in the form of finding a sister for me or just someone else for him to play with. When the idea was posed to me by an outside source that perhaps my jealous was due to the fact that i was not allowed (or never got to) play with someone else, something clicked for me. We went to a play party several weeks ago and he played with other people, and i was left on my own for the night. It was not done necessarily on purpose, but it was the way things happened. Frustration raged in me. Not jealousy, but frustration of sitting on my hands all night because no one wanted to play with me.... So following that, i posted up on fet that i was open to playing with others, that i was a sadist, not just a submissive, that i was here in my own right, not just as an extension of my Master. I also sent out a couple of emails asking others if they might want to top me. The next party, a mere few days after said posting, I was asked to top a lovely little girl in warm up for a scene for her later that night. After asking Master's permission, i quickly agreed, and the first scene of the night for me was a lovely flogging applied to her back ass tits and cunt, as well as making her admit what a little pain slut she is. Master was doing a fire scene with someone else in another room, so he didn't get to see much of it.... After his scene ended, he was asked to do a rope demo by the same girl i flogged, and oh! how my heart soared when he told her that he was willing to do so only after he had scened with me. Our scene was beautiful and intense and i felt more connected to him in that hour and a half than i have in a long time. I will refrain from posting it here, as i am still holding it close to my heart. We finished up the night by tying the little girl slut up and letting anyone that wanted to touch her touch her. It was incredible hot to work with Master in such a way... Not quite his equal, but not so under him either.

This was a turning point in our relationship. It made us stronger, and it made me realize that it was not the idea of him playing with someone else that made me freak, but rather the idea of being left alone while it was happening. As i started getting more comfortable with it, i have started planning finding Master an additional girl. Then we bought a bar....

Well... Actually, Master's father bought a bar, realized it wasn't as much fun as he would have liked, and gave the bar to Master. Suddenly, it took over all rational and civil life. We both have put a lot of hours into it, trying to get paperwork done and everything legal and up and running. We are finally making progress... But this as given me a lot of time at home alone....

Which is how i met J. J is a friend of Spirited One's Master, Asha, who lives here in the states. Friend is a bit of an understatement, they say they are more like brothers. They certainly act like it. Asha got me into play Lord of the Rings Online, and there i met J. And we clicked... Through one conversation or another (they are kind of blurring together on me at the moment) we were discussing the fact that Master isn't really okay with being a Daddy and that J thought that it was incredible hot... And well... I like him.. I like being his Princess... It feels wonderful to have a place to express that side of me in a safe healthy (?) way. I adore him.

Bringing up the need to define our relationship as open with Master went a lot smoother that i would have thought. I made sure to clarify that it wasn't that i didn't want to be with him , or that i wanted to cheat. It was ultimately his decision. I told him honestly and bluntly that there were things that we both wanted in a relationship that we couldn't give each other and that it seemed silly to limit our happiness by staying monogamous. He agreed. Just that simple.

Well... It might have been that simple for him to agree, but it has taken me a bit to adjust to liking someone else.... Okay more than a bit, cause i'm still not adjusted. But i'm working on that...