I talk to much. i'm not great with secrets. Sometimes i open my mouth and out comes all this garbage, like mind vomit. As a little kid, i used to tell everyone what they got for Christmas if i knew. Come to think of it, i still kinda do that...
Yesterday, i bragged about a maybe promotion in the works, now i might not get it. I told one person on campus, someone i thought i could trust (cause i said not to say anything) and now everyone know, and my boss got mad, and i might lose it.
Recently there were things said to me (that had a lot of nothing to do with me) and i wasn't told to keep quiet, but i said those things to the person they were said about (still following) because i partially thought they deserved to know. In the process of telling said person what was said about them i specifically told them NOT to bring me into it. That while i wasn't entirely sure i was breaking confidences, i didn't want to get dragged into the mess. Of course said person disregarded what i said completely, breaking trusts and bonds.
Maybe this blog is just another example of me talking to much. And yet, somehow, in my relationship, i don't communicate. Ever feel like you can't win for losing? I know its about when i communicate, how and with whom, but i just want to tape my mouth shut... Or gag it.. even at work. Should i become the type of person, the type of submissive, that doesn't speak unless spoken to? That reserves all thoughts and opinions until prompted? I have occasionally thought so before, but i am so... talkative on a general basis, that it never sticks. I guess i have not had the self discipline.