"I will not try to manipulate my master. I will not push to make a scene go the way I feel it should. In other words, I will not top from the bottom."
Manipulation is a way of life. Its using something to get what you want. Sex, emotion, etc. Flirting is manipulation, so is intimidation. I used to be very used to using sex to get my way. Men pretty much always want sex and are used to doing, saying just about anything to get it. Master refused to sleep with me when we started dating. He took control of that from the begining. It was a smart move.
I admit I am still guilty of this from time to time, mostly unintentionally. I have yet to gain the ability to ask for something that I desire without manipulation. I am still childish in many ways, prone to outbursts and emotional breakdowns. On some level, I suppose these outburst and breakdowns are another form of manipulation, however unintentional. I am no where near the perfect submissive, and I understand that I have much more to learn and much further to grow before i am worth of accepting a collar for life from my Master.
I don't think there is such thing as the perfect submissive. We're all human and we'll always act human. I think what we need to strive for is just being the best person that we can be in every moment without blaming ourselves for making mistakes and acting foolish. It's something we all do... just learn from it and move on!
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@spirited- yes, you are right, that perfect girl doesn't exist. And as my Master is constantly reminding me, it is not my responsibility to determine when i have failed or deserve a punishment, not mine.
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