I know that you need me to be strong and happy for you. And knowing that i am faking it just for you makes me feel like more of a failure. The failure that you don't see. You don't see that i am struggling to do things so easy for everyone else. You don't see that i am breaking under the pressure. Because i can't let you see. I can't communicate openly and honestly with you. You are trying so hard to make me happy and i can't show you how i am dying...