I'm very frustrated with life right now. I feel out of touch with my submission, am finding it hard to remember what attracted me to the lifestyle in the first place. MOR is.... not helping the situation. I cry all the time. Depression has me wrapped around its little finger. I want to hurt myself. Want him to want to hurt me. To want me. To see, to understand. I want him to feel what i am going through. I want him to help. so many wants that, though i have expressed them, sitting waiting. i can't help but feel like i am doing something wrong. But for the life of me, i can't figure out what.... blurgh
I understand the feelings... wish I could say something helpful. I just hope the feelings have gotten better as the week has progressed. *hugs*
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